Dream House?

So we applied for a house today, we should hear back tomorrow afternoon! Prayers would be greatly appreciated! :0)

Anxious Hope

Well, to say the least I’ve neglected my poor little bloggy blog for the past few months. Things just seem to have sort of snowballed out, well not necessarily out of control, but well out of control.

I don’t even exactly know where to start to catch everything up to speed. So here’s the short list with a few notes when necessary…

• School Life – stressful, full of pressure, and anxiousness over being the “perfect” teacher that the principal expects me to be
• My students – my saving grace at school, how I love all 22 of them each in their own way
• YL – still not quite settled, but very slowly getting a little better
• Tired of being home
• “Glee” – new addiction
• Missing friends
• Sister – home for Christmas=awesome, home last week=fabulous, back to Spokane today=sad
• Pixie hair cut
• iPod touch :0)

Okay, so things haven’t so much changed since I last wrote but I just feel so ready to move on from this stage of life. Ready to start something new. While the sister was home we were talking about moving together next year, to Portland.  She’s graduating and I’m ready for a new phase it seems like the right idea. And even though we can fight, we make up quickly and know what to expect of the other.

I just feel like I’m living in this stage of anxious hope, and not like the hope is anxious but that the pressure I feel from school is just compounding the hope I have about things for next year, making it stronger, making me realize how much I want this. Where I would like to be, God willing, and doing. A new city, a new season, in some ways I feel like a new stage of adulthood. I’ve been living at home since I graduated and while I do my own thing and spend a lot of time in my room and doing  my own thing, I’m ready to have some more distance from my roots. Not that being here is bad, but I’m young and I want a chance to spread my wings a little.

I know it’s silly but I’ve already started packing up my classroom in little bits. Nothing that the kids would notice, but last year I put it off and put it off because I so wanted to stay and what a change it is this year.

There are things that make me want to stay. My sweet parents, the crazy puppy, working with the play at SG, the familiarity of everything (I’m getting all teary just thinking about it), but I know it’s not enough to keep me here. And even if moving with sister doesn’t work out, I’m almost certain I’d move on my own. Scary as it would be I’m ready for something new.

(big sigh) So, that’s life for now.

Butterflies

After yesterday’s novel, this will be a short post. I have an interview for a job on Wednesday morning. The nerves are starting to kick in and I’m already trying to come up with ways to keep myself busy and not obsessing (that don’t all involve me going shopping for designer jeans), and coming up with all the possible interview scenarios.

Praying that God will guide me and give me peace.