So close…

It came down to two finalists…myself and another candidate. We taught a short lesson with six kids – which I was delighted to see when I walked in that 3 of the 6 were Kelsey, Piper, and Reese! How nice to have smiling, familiar faces! – I felt really, REALLY good about the lesson I taught and how I related to the kids.

An hour and a half later the call came and then there were the words you know can’t be good, “Well we really want to thank you for coming in to interview…” and the rest of the conversation is downhill from there. There was good feedback, and she said they offered it to the other person because she had more experience at the grade level. I  did hear good things from several people so overall it was a good experience, and I don’t feel the way I did after the interview before this…I’m proud of myself.

Strangely, I feel at peace…mostly. I am disappointed, and frustrated with this continual process of getting so close and then I don’t get the job. Michelle made a really good point when I was talking to her and I said that I just wish I didn’t get the call to interview if it’s not the job for me just leave it there…but then she reminded me that I want to be getting those calls because it means good things are out there about me, people know me and want to hire me, if I wasn’t getting called, that would be something to worry about…

Tomorrow is the last day in August, and then the count down is on until September 8 and the start of school. At this point I’m really expecting a year of subbing…and trying to focus on the upside of that. Learning from other teachers, getting my name out there, working with all sorts of different age groups, flexibility to not work a day if I don’t feel like it.

I feel exhausted, like I’ve been on a roller coaster but at the same time I know I’m going somewhere I’m not stuck on this eternal track of up and down. So maybe I’ve just been on a very long road trip through some windy, bumpy, rough patches but headed towards a glorious sunrise…God has a plan and I’m really relying on that. It’s hard to keep telling people I didn’t get the job, but none of them were my jobs. It’s still out there, and it may be another year or even more before I find it, but it’s out there somewhere. God knows where he’s taking me, I just need to sit back and enjoy the ride.

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P.S. My Young Life kids are the best, what a way to end this hectic day…love them

Interview #1

The first interview of the summer is officially over. And it went by fast. So, I showed up early and had to wait around in the office for like 10 minutes while the person in front of me finished. I went back to the conference room, and it was a small interview committee (at least to what I’ve seen in the past), just three people.  And only like five questions. Which contributed to the quickness, but I also think I talked at turbo-warp speed. oops. So, from all of that it seems like they are doing quick interviews because they know who they are going to hire and the whole interview process is just a formality.

I think I answered all the questions well. It’s hard sometimes to think of answers off the top of your head, and sometimes I’d start to answer a question and then realize that my answer wasnt’ exactly what I wanted to communicate, so then I’d have to think of a way to spin it in a new direction.

I have another interview with the same school on Monday, for one of three open positions, that would just be for a year. And if I get called back for a second interview, then I would have to teach a model lesson. I hate doing that, but whatever it takes to get the job. So, check that off as another reason that the interview for this job was not meant to be.

Oh, and then Scott called to ask about some of my kids last year, and if they would be good in a split again this year. Not a good omen, it seems that my  potential job at SG may be vanishing…overall, feeling kinda defeated. And it doesn’t help that I hardly slept at all last night, nerves I think. But life goes on!

Anyway, I’m going to put on some more casual clothes and run a few errands, maybe even go to Target…oh how I love Target!

**UPDATE – Got the official word, I didn’t get the job.

Exhahusted…

today has been extremely long…

i met with my fellow grade level teammates and we mapped out our plan for math for the year

then i frantically began trying to piece together my classroom…it’s not exactly put together yet, but with a few days time it’ll get there

that’s all i have the energy to write for now…

more to come